A couple of entries previously, I wrote about me not feeling like a proper adult. This has not changed ever since, but as I am working as a nanny at the moment, I have realised that I do not feel like an adult because I am actually still a child. There are many patterns in my behaviour which indicate I have apparently never fully grown up. Do not get me wrong, I am physically an adult and enjoy the benefits of adulthood (if you have dirty thoughts, you had them first), but there are some distinctly child-like features in my behavioural patterns and I collected the most prominent here:
1) I like repetition. I watch the same movies and read the same books hundreds of times instead of moving on to something else. At the moment, I have the full programme of Netflix available, but only watch Gilmore Girls and The Big Bang Theory for, like, the thousandths time. I also have read my favourite books so often I know them by heart and feel slightly opposed to the idea of reading an entirely new book or watch an entirely new movie - unless it is pretty much the same as something I already know. 2) I have a taste range of a seven year old. I could eat spaghetti three times a week and wouldn't mind. I still detest broccoli and although I have grown to like salad, carrots and some other veggies, I still am a sweet tooth and would eat chocolate all day long, if I could (ironically, as a child, my parents prevented that and now as I am grown up my own body does...) My favourite dishes are fish fingers, spaghetti, pancakes, pizza and burgers and I hate olives, seafood, capers, asparagus, and am not a big fan of alcohol. Coffee makes me sick and my favourite hot drink is still hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows. 3) I hate change. Well, I would assume that most people do not like change too much, but I react to it like children do. I bitch and whine and have literal outbreaks of tears when something changes (I am ok with change if I bring on myself - like moving to the UK - but not change I cannot influence or control, which probably does not make me a child, but a control freak...well, one or the other). 4) I still feel intimidated when proper adults are in the room and when some problem occurs, I am the first to shout out "it wasn't me" (which is always an indicator that it actually was me). 5) Leading on from point 4, I am a pathological liar. So, I am not insinuating that all children are pathological liars, but for self-protection or denial they often avoid claiming responsibility for what they have done and concoct bizarre stories to get themselves out of the gunfire. I am the same. Once, when I was fed up with school and wanted to play truant, I pretended my phone rang, went outside and when I came back, I claimed my aunt had had a terrible accident while climbing a ladder and that I needed to visit her in the hospital (during school hours, obviously). I once stole of my friend and denied it, even though it was found, incriminating me, in my cupboard (I was actually a friend back then). My technique with lying is to always stick to it and tell the lie so often that you actually start believing it yourself - that makes a good liar. 6) I spend many hours a day pretending to be someone else or wishing for the world to be, well, more. My imagination is under full control and sometimes overtakes a bit too much. When I am alone, I pretend people are interviewing me or that I am someone else on a mission, etc. This child trait, I like most and would never want it to go away (even though it makes me a bit of a lunatic) as it is the source of my imagination and stories. To conclude, I don't mind these traits (even though I might not have any friends left after publishing it, but it is time to tell the truth - for once) as they make me who I am - a person I am slowly growing to like. If you want to tell me some of your character traits you have withheld from the public so far, share them here or on my Facebook page.
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AuthorIn September 2015 I started a new chapter of my life by moving (temporarily or permanently, not yet decided) to England where I work and socialise now. Archives
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